Monday, April 27, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
For example, my grandmother gave Isaac a little musical stuffed frog that plays Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (or the alphabet song, whichever you prefer) when you press him tummy. When we first got the frog, you had to pound on it to get any music out of it. Well, the other night I woke up to feed Isaac and I heard the frog going off in his bedroom. And not just once, MULTIPLE TIMES. When I was done feeding him, I put Isaac back in his bassinet and went to get my pump...frog still blazing away. So I went to investigate. Sure enough, there he was wedged into Isaac's stuffed animal basket having a good ol' time. I figured that he must be wedged in to tightly and the other animals must have shifted or something from the weight of all of them. Whatever. I pulled him out and set him on top, silencing him.
Or so I thought. The next morning, what do I hear? Yep, the damn frog!!!! It kept going off at random times, and each time it freaked me out more. I don't think Ben believed me.
Finally on Sunday, the wretched amphibian went off while Ben was home. I sent him to investigate. I heard it go off several more times and finally stop. According to Ben, the music box inside had shifted and was now hyper sensitive and s slight jiggle would set it off...like slamming doors or heavy footsteps or a cat jumping on the bookcase. He put the toy into a plastic toy container up in Isaac's closet, and we haven't heard it since.
According to my paranormal investigator husband, the case of the ghost frog has been debunked. He is now ready for his own show on SciFi. :)
Monday, April 20, 2009
I am not ashamed admit that my heart broke for a total stranger, a woman and family I will most likely never meet. I am not embarassed that I cried as my heart broke while looking at pictures of this beautiful, miracle baby girl. I do not feel guilty for the money I sent to March of Dimes in her name.
If our biggest problem is an overheated home, than I will take it. Ben and I are truly blessed. We have a beautiful healthy baby boy who arrived without complication. My pregnancy was smooth, and gestational diabetes was inconvenient but absolutely nothing to complain about. We got pregnant without even trying, on our first try, and my heart breaks for all the loving people who have infertility struggles and pregnancy complications. My child's biggest issue is his lack of love for a bottle...and that is nothing.
I know my precious Isaac is sound asleep, but I just want to cuddle him. I want to pick him up and tell him how much he has lit up my life already, how he has enfused me with new passion and inspired me to be a better person since the moment he was born. I want to tell him how much I adore him, and how ferociously I love him. Everyday I have, will have, and have had, as a mother is a blessed gift. Every smile and laugh from my adorable baby is a gift that no one else could ever give me. I have never known love as I have known it as a mother. Isaac has given me so much and he has no idea.
I am going to lay next to his bassinet and fall asleep watching the little love of my life slumber peacefully.
Getting some sort of cool airflow, especially through our room and Isaac's room is on our list of things to do once our tax refund hits our bank. Since we rent, I don't think central air is an option, but we are certainly and strongly considering two window units. And I am calling the landlord to ask about the screens ASAP.
My husband and I grew up in Ohio, where the humidity and heat raged rampant from June to August, so we are used to uncomfortable heat. Isaac, of course is not. :( Poor baby. I have had all our fans going, and the doors open. Isaac has been in his onesie and diaper. I have been changing his diaper frequently and dousing him in powder. I have kept the curtains drawn across the big windows and closed the blinds in our rooms once the sun hits them. I have even been wiping him down with a tepid cloth. We've sat in the shade to catch the breeze. It is just so hard to hear him be so uncomfortable and not be able to help him more. We took an air conditioned car ride today, and he liked that.
I am not usually so ill-prepared for weather extremes (with the exception of the snow in Ohio 2 weeks ago), but we didn't think it would get so hot so fast. Prepping the house for a hot summer is definately on the top of the list now.
Since I spent most of the day trying to keep the baby cool, not alot else got done. We did get an HD cable box for the bedroom for the new TV (did I talk about that? Hmmmm), and I did get some bills sorted out and some stuff set up for my "supplemental income" (no it's NOT drugs!!!!). Speaking of bills, I got the official itemized hospital bill, and have sent a copy off to my madre to check over along with the list of what we used, asked for, etc. My $819 total does include the happy drip! I only had a few questions, so hopefully I can get that sorted out by the end of the week and paid before I go back to work.
Ok, my attention must be averted elsewhere....did I mention that "the Hil.ls" is my guilty pleasure?
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Pull all old bills and statements to be shredded; file current year's statements, etc.; and reorganize file cabinet
Create Financial binder so all relevant info is in one spot (part of my hardcore buy a house prep)
Isaac's baby book....currently a pile of mayhem
Finish Christmas cookie book (indulging my in Christmas addiction)
Go through old magazine and pull out all recipes to put in recipe binder
These projects will not all be done by the 4th, but I am aiming for the end of May. We'll see.
What I don't really enjoy is that when he does get up, he is ravenous....and WIDE AWAKE. This means the schedule that took place previously at 6-7 am is now happening at 4-5 am. And when I say wide awake, I mean smiles and laughing and kicking and cooing. The full "I'm awake, Mommy, play with me, cuddle me, love me, I don't care if your eyes are still unfocused and crusted shut with sleep deprivation."
But I do it. I try in vain to put him back in the bassinet with the magical FP seahorse he has grown to love (or is that me?) but it has yet to be successful. So we get up and come out to the family room and hop onto the packnplay for a diaper change. I let him kick forcefully while I put everything away from our night and make my oatmeal and oj breakfast. Usually by this time, his eyes are looking a little heavy as he has been awake for about an hour and a half (I let him kick in the bassinet for a while, as long as he is happy). Thus far I have been able to put him in his swing and he falls asleep while I snooze on the couch for about 3 hours.
This schedule is fine now but will not be very good in 2 weeks when I have to go to work. Daddy will not want to get up at 4 am.
I am happy for the most part with how and how long Isaac sleeps. We have finally taken the hot water bottle out of the bassinet and he sleeps completely flat on his back with his arms over his head. We have moved to the half swaddle for his legs only since he loves his arms free (which probably isn't necessary anymore, but we are trying to adapt him to a few new things so one thing at a time, right?).
Bottle feeding...yeah, not so much. The past two nights have been tough. I don't understand what is going on because he used to take the bottle so well when we introduced it at about 3 weeks. He has had consistent bottles since then so it really is like he made the decision to hate them. Last night I got abou 2 ounces down him over about a 45 minute period in which I was talking to him constantly. You should have heard the things I was saying. If I stopped or paused for a second, everything unraveled. I have some more methods to try so we will see how it goes.
Today is Family Funday Sunday, so we have aBBQ to prepare for. :)
Saturday, April 18, 2009
And I will close with an Isaac update and picture: the cry it out method...not working so well. I did get him to nap though (still sleeping in fact) on my bed by doing the side nurse. Another skill he has mastered at least somewhat is that when I go to change his diaper, he pulls his legs up for me once the diaper is off. :) However, he refuses to put them down when the new diaper is in place and ready to be fastened. We are working on it. He also LOVES the alphabet song. Someone gave him a leap frog toy that sings it and he laughs and laughs. I took a video but haven't figured out the software for the video camera yet.
The picture was taken by the aforementioned disgustingly talented godmother...but we love her anyway. :)
Now, I understand the need to cut back expenses in this difficult time in order to keep as many people employed and the company in the black. Recently VS did massive payroll cuts: One of my friends took a $6/hr cut. Additionally, they did major layoffs and pushed some full time managers to part time. Two women I used to work with recently were laid off. They were both with the company for over 10 years, one of them approaching 20 and was 2 years away from her retirement. VS supposedly gave them a weeks pay for each year they were with the company. However, the one woman did not get her retirement. Not a penny. AND...their benefits are being cut, or have been within the two weeks of their layoff. Both these women are over 60.
Neither woman was a manager. My friend that took a pay cut was, but that is another story. I suppose the rationale of these company decisions is that the employees with pay cuts will just deal with it because they know it is very hard to find a new job. As for the women that were laid off, I guess they think that they will be able to hire part-time employees at a fraction of the cost of these women's former salaries, but they surely have to know that they will be getting a fraction of the service quality.
These decision to do layoffs and paycuts by VS angers me for a couple reasons, not just because it hits close to home for me. First of all, I get 7 million catalogs per day. I know they have cut paper consumption and that it is a separate division of the entire company...but seriously. I know for a fact that some catalogs don't even have new prices or products, just a different presentation.
Next, CUT YOUR DAMN PACKAGING! I can use a filmsy paper bag or cheap box. I don't need a fancy box to create my own giftset. I don't need a shiny pink bag with the supermodels plastered on it. Which leads me to my next point....
DON'T PAY THE SUPERMODELS 13+million a year! Seriously, who sells more product for you, a high quality staff or an overpaid model that no one ever sees? Maybe you don't need a 15million dollar fashion show.
Bottom line: people will buy just as much from VS without those things.
I don't have a high opinion of the VS corporation anymore. I won't share my story as to how and why I left the company, but it left a bitter taste in my mouth. I will never work for a large retail conglomerate again, if I can help it. Sure it has its perks but the downfalls are not worth it.
Ok...I am done. Isaac and I are trying the cry it out method in attempt to get him to take a nap. Not going well thus far.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Because of this, we were trying to figure out our "gameplan." It made me take a hard look at my life, and where I want it to go. Everything truly changes when you have a baby, and my dreams now include a wonderful life for Isaac. I spent alot of time thinking about how I can give that to him and still balance in my own life and my husband's.
I started this blog to track my pregnancy and give updates to those far away (who, by the way, do not COMMENT!). Now that I have a beautiful baby boy, it seems fitting that it has just kind of evolved into one that tells my stories of motherhood. Being so far away from most of my friends and all of my family, I don't have alot of people to talk to, or alot of time to really talk to them with time differences and busy schedules. It just kind of comes out here. I have tried to keep my posts focused on all things baby, and my motherhood updates, but I realized that at this point, those two aspects are truly defining in who I am becoming and my/our goals. Herego, I am going to branch out a bit and talk more about a few things, including work, finances (moolah) and preparing to buy a house and for the future, my volunteer work, my hobbies (or lack there of), and of course...I will still primarily focus on my beautiful Isaac and how I am dealing with being a mother.
Ok...with that all said, there are a few more changes in me and Isaac that I have noticed. :) Prepare for an all things baby update:
Isaac does not like to burp anymore. He is so hungry, I think, that he does not want to burp in between sides. We try so hard, but nothing. Because of this, he gorges himself and then usually spits up about half of what he ate from the second side. Yes, all my clothes are starting to smell of spit-up. He even got some in my bed the other night! We aren't talking a little drool of milk here. I mean about a full ounce come flying out of his mouth in projectile format. Because of this bad eating habit, my milk supply is increasing AGAIN. Since he is feeding more often now, it is starting to wear on me again. I think I may have to pump more, just so he doesn't overeat if he isn't burping between breasts. Maybe 1 ounce since that seems to be what is coming up. I still am trying to work on the burping, but seriously....I can't beat on the kid's back for 20 minutes. Even after he is done, we have hard time getting the burpies up.
In another aspect, we are hard-core preparing to buy a house and move. That means serious saving and debt reduction. I revamped my spreadsheet of debts and interest rates and payments, and am going to take a hard look how to throw more that way. Our tax returns are really helping. We agreed to use half to pay off debt and half to save to create a cushion. That way, we can push more toward debt reduction from our weekly paychecks. (NOTE: when I talk about debt reduction and saving money, I don't intend to ever use real figures as this not a finance blog, just what we are doing to decrease debt and spending, and increase saving.) I am returning to work with 4 9-hour days rather than 5 8-hours. It's only a 4 hour a week income loss, and I think we will be fine, even with the added daycare expense. I am looking into some supplemental income options, and will post more on that soon when I am further into it.
Ok...my tummy is rumbling and I am starving! Time to eat breakfast before baby boy wakes up from the morning nap. :) We are going to meet with our lamaze class friends today for a walk around the nearby lake.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
This is friend Lily....
4 generations at Easter....
With future girlfriend Lila....she's an older woman ;)
With cousins Gracie and AJ
And lastly....my little Easter bunny baby.... :)
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Ben and I had our first night out, sans baby last night. It went really well. We just went out to dinner at an old favorite restuarant and did some quick shopping. It was wierd to be without Isaac, but he was with my parents so I felt really comfortable. I only called once to check on him and that was more to see if I needed to come home to feed him anytime soon. I guess he took his bottle really well last night. :) Maybe the anti-fake nipple phase is over.
I love how he is getting tired out during the day! The past two nights he has slept in a 6 hour and 3 hour block. It's nice.
Today is his dedication and fish fry. He is already up and ready to party! :)