Thursday, July 30, 2009

Mommy Day

It's after 3:30 in the afternoon, and I haven't showered. I am still in my pjs.

This morning when I woke up, I felt like a truck had run me over, backed up, then run me over again. And the time that I woke up was 4:30. Isaac was ready to party. I held him off until 5, but then we were up. And I had a fever.

(Sidenote: Husbands: When your wife goes to bed way after you and is up all night with the baby, maybe it isn't the wisest move to bitch about the coffee not being set up and just take the 2 minutes to do it yourself. CUT THE SWEARING OUT. It doesn't help matters.)

So today became Mommy Day. Isaac went to Miss K's and I collapsed on the sofa. Then on my bed. And just woke up.


I felt really guilty as I loaded Isaac into his seat. He looked so happy in his pack and play, playing with his new favorite toy, a little red crab. He smiled at me and cooed. He babbled all the way to daycare. He didn't know that it was a different day and he wasn't supposed to be there. But I did. And it feels wierd to be in the house, alone, without him here with me. It's like I am cheating on him or something. I feel so guilty. And I had to reschedule his 6 month shots.

But at least I am well rested with no fever.


mommaruthsays said...

Take care of you, momma - you can't take care of your boy if you're not feeling up to par. It doesn't even have to be 100% of you, but if you're running on half-empty then don't feel guilty. He'll never remember you took a day to yourself, but you'll never forget what a difference it made for you both.

Andrea said...

Take care of yourself!! I hope you start feeling better soon. It's better for Isaac to be at daycare so you can recover faster...and then you will be able to enjoy your time with him more and not put him at risk of getting sick too!

You're doing a great job :-)

Andrea's Sweet Life said...

Don't feel guilty for taking a day to get yourself well. Isaac wouldn't have had your full attention, anyway!

I'm glad you took time to take care of yourself!