Get it? I am between a rock and a hardplace? :)
Isaac has been loving daycare. He loves Miss K, his friends, the activity. But lately he has been very clingy. He wants to be held all the time. And he always wants someone in his sight. Perhaps it is the start or onset of separation anxiety. Whatever it is, it is taking its toll on my and Ben, and Miss K.
This week when I drop him off at daycare, he has cried when I put him down and left. And it broke my heart. I teared up in the car and cursed everyone and their brother that I had to go to work and not be with my baby.
This morning was different. He didn't cry. He didn't fuss. He didn't notice. And THAT broke my heart just as much. I teared up in the car and cursed everyone and their brother that I had to go to work and not be with my baby, and he didn't seem to notice.
It's not that I WANT my baby to cry. I don't. But it is just as biting when he doesn't cry.
So what am I to do? This week has been really rough on me. I don't know what to do. Obvisiously changes need to be made, I just don't know how to go about them. Or even what decisions are best.
I love my job. I love having "me" time. But I love my baby more.
This rock and hardplace is really giving me a headache.