Mama

"...I traded eyeliner for dark circles, salon haircuts for ponytails, designer jeans for sweatpants, long showers for hairy legs, late nights at the clubs for early mornings, designer purses for diaper bags...and I wouldn't trade a thing back. "

No one will ever tell you that being a mother is easy, because it isn't. Sure parts of the job are easier than others...I mean how can a big bear hug possibly be difficult? Nothing really prepares you for the changes to come and oh how quickly they do.

The other day I was thinking of how my weekends have changed. No longer are they filled with shopping trips to the City, movies, sleeping in until 11, long bubble baths, and overall laziness. Not as many parties and having dinner and drinks with friends. Now, our weekends consist of baby showers, fundraisers, shopping trips for diapers and errands, DVRed shows from 3 weeks ago, short showers (if I am lucky and time it right it turns into a longer one!) and sleeping in is now considered 730. I can't tell you the last movie I saw in a theater that didn't involve weeks of planning.

My clothes are all stained and smell like baby-something..food, vomit, milk, spit, and I am lucky if they fit as every single body part is different now. I don't remember the last time I had a pedicure. I rarely get hair cuts, and when I do it has to remain long enough to put in a ponytail.

But I love it. I truly do. It's hard. And I get frustrated. Somedays I look at my life and think "I can't believe this is my life" wanting to tear my hair out. But most days, I look at my life and think "I can't believe this is my life" with a smile.

Especially days like this:

I had a wonderful 2nd Mother's Day, just me and Isaac. It rained and kept us from going to the park as planned. But we played. We sang "Isaac Lahman has a farm" and he say "E I E I." And the best parts of the day were when he laid his head on my shoulder and said "awwww Mama."

I am alot of things to alot of people. I have alot of titles, alot of names. But Mama, and all it comes with, is definately the best one. :)